Follows Fear of Flying post
As you may understand, for years if not decades after this event at the airport (see Fear of Flying post) , I have had an intense fear of flying. Every time I go to the airport I feel the original anxiety of that day in February 1985. The intercom voice announcements seem to echo off the walls and the floors in some surreal fashion. The lack of windows to the outside leaves me feeling claustrophobic always. In the early years, this meant I had to be escorted by family to the runway gate if I were traveling alone. (This was before the days of post 9/11 security checks.) Years later even if I am traveling with family, I tend to be hyper aware of safety issues at all times when I am at an airport. My thoughts become more elevated and I am prone to high anxiety. Strangely (or logically) enough these fears largely take place at the airport itself and seldom revolve around safety issues pre-flight or mid-flight while on the plane. I am not very fearful once I am on the airplane or in flight. The anxiety is almost always associated with being in the airport and feeling unsafe. Gladly, my husband is also not fond of flying, so we tend to make marathon drives for our summer and family vacations.
As a side note on airports and airport travel, I tend to have a very hard time with changing time zones when I am flying. When I am traveling by car or by train this is not so much the case as the time change is gradual. Because of this time zone change difficulty, I largely avoided flying to Europe for almost thirty plus years. Even a flight from Baltimore to San Francisco was difficult in that I would experience a three-hour time change and all the difficulties associated with that, particularly impacts on sleeping. In the last few years, I have progressed through my fears and my sleep issues of changing time zones and have traveled to Europe twice – once was for a conference in Zurich, Switzerland in July 2012 and once was for a wedding and a conference in the United Kingdom in July 2013. Thanks to Melatonin as prescribed by my psycho-pharmacologist, I was able to make these trips with relative ease in the area of jet lag and adjusting sleep cycles.
I am very thankful that my psycho-pharmacologist as an MD was open to prescribing a relatively non-traditional form of medicine for jet lag. This option worked beautifully for me and has given me hope that overseas travel is no longer a huge worry or huge hurdle to overcome. In general, I am very blessed to have care givers for my bipolar illness who bridge traditional medicines and their prescription with alternative medicines such as Melatonin.
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Well, I’m delighted to read that flying is less of a problem now and that you’ve been able to fly both to Zurich and the UK. Melatonin isn’t prescribed much in the UK and normally for over 55’s. However, as I have a disorder called Transverse Myelitis (similar to MS) I’m not allowed to have it.
I’ve heard great thing about it from fellow-bloggers in the States. Is it a regular medication or a one-off?