Anxiety is a bully

I have been journaling since March 2021 about strides I am making in practicing yoga or walking on a regular basis. A week or two ago, I decided to include journaling about my anxiety in the same log. Once I started writing about my anxiety, it was as if I could not stop.

I called my anxiety a bully in that it instills pain wherever it goes. I called my anxiety cancerous in that the anxiety causes good health to go bad. I wrote and wrote and wrote about anxiety not being a friend but being a bully and how there was no room in my home for a bully. I do not allow bullying to occur in the neighborhood or at school, so why would I accept bullying at home?

I know I don’t always have control over my emotions and that is why I have a diagnosis of bipolar, but it is soooo helpful to be able to call out anxiety as a bully and think of it as something that is pervading my home rather than a feature of the bipolar I just have to accept. It is true I cannot control the anxiety when it occurs, I can only control how I respond to it when it does occur. But calling it a bully somehow helps me to think of the anxiety as “other than” and not me. I am not my anxiety. I am not my diagnosis. I am not my bipolar. My anxiety exists as a bully as part of my illness. I can call it out for what it is and I can tell it off and I can tell it it is not welcome in my person, in my home, or in my relationships with family and friends.

Does anybody else have coping mechanisms for anxiety that seem to help by differentiating the anxiety from the person experiencing it? Is it helpful to you too to think of anxiety as a bully to be kept at bay?

Sound and Healing?

At first a caveat – this is not medical advice. It is merely a question about how alternative treatments for cancer might be explored further and/or might come into being. This does not substitute for care from oncologists or other MDs or other medical professionals who may be treating someone for cancer.

If you believe that humans are truly vibrational beings then it follows that sounds or vibrations may have more impact on us and on our well-being than we know. I have come to believe after about 20 years of soul-searching and study that cancer may be able to be treated by vibrations or sounds as applied to the brain via electrodes. This includes studying the work of Royal Raymond Rife (see bibliography / sources below) who was an MD who died in the 70s and promoted sound frequencies for a variety of illnesses. I have come to believe that each type of cancer has its own frequency that when applied to the body can transform cell structures that are mangled from cancerous contamination to cell structures that are free from cancer and healthy. I believe that the cell structure itself is modified through sound to return to its original, cancer-free structure after a certain period of introducing the said frequency to the body. I believe this turnaround may occur over the course of several days rather than months. Continued periodic exposure to the frequency may be recommended for health maintenance.

Does this sound like the insane ramblings of a person with bipolar disorder or does this warrant testing in the medical community in the form of a clinical trial? I am all for scientific validation of this hypothesis and have welcomed it for years. Does anybody know how such a clinical trial could come about?

Sources:

http://www.healingfrequenciesmusic.com/royal-raymond-rife – Royal Raymond Rife Royal Raymond Rife had a lab where he worked on fighting cancer with frequencies. He is also the inventor of the “universal microscope.” After discovering which frequencies worked, he used them in clinical trials that were documented by the University of Southern California.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Royal_RifeRoyal Raymond Rife (May 16, 1888 – August 5, 1971) was an American inventor and early exponent of high-magnification time-lapse cine-micrography. He is best known for a claimed ‘beam ray’ invention during the 1930s, which he thought could treat some diseases through vibration.

Anatomy of the Spirit: The Seven Stages of Power and Healing. By Caroline Myss (copyright 1996 by Caroline Myss|Crown Publishers, Three Rivers Press, New York).